Today’s post is by monthly contributor Lara Williams.
Time is flying past me too quick. I can’t remember the exact day that marks the last time I carried my daughter up the stairs. I just know that she’s too big for my arms.
And I can’t remember the exact day that marks the last time I changed a diaper or filled a bottle or opened a jar of mushy carrots. I just know that time has flown, kids have grown, and days are different.
I was recently thinking about this short breath we call life and felt a great sense of urgency. Because tomorrow will happen. And then a decade will pass. And I want to look back knowing that I lived it purposefully. Not perfectly, but purposefully.
So I pondered motherhood before my God. And a single question came to mind.
What do I want my kids to remember about me as a mom?
My answer? I want them to know that I loved them, loved their daddy, and loved my God.
A new commandment I give to you, that you love one another: just as I have loved you, you also are to love one another. By this all people will know that you are my disciples, if you have love for one another.
Putting the answer that succinctly burdened me. Because some days I wonder if they truly know my love. Some days I wonder if they may think I love my phone or a clean house or my to-do list more than I love them. Even typing those words makes me nauseous.
Because I know me. I know all my failures and weaknesses. I know all the times I’ve overreacted in anger or crushed little hearts in the hurried of daily living.
But I’m also convinced — convicted — of the character of my God. I praise Him that in spite of me and my imperfect mothering, He woos and transforms and brings about His plan in the lives of my children. Such. grace.
Today’s a new day — the first one of the rest of our life. God will continue to strengthen His love through us as willing vessels, and we will continue to make mistakes, but the challenge is to look at today’s choices through the lens of love. The challenge is to move purposefully under His banner of grace.
How do you live purposefully as a mom in our very busy, loud world?
What practical choice can you make today to purposefully love those He has in your life? Click here to share.